May 2024 - Spring moments

There are two phrases I tell my kids a lot before they take on whatever it may be:

1) You only have control over your preparation, effort, and attitude. 

2) Work hard, play hard, and be a good sport.  

We've been saying these phrases a lot these days.  Raising tweens and teenagers feels like putting our foot on the gas of time (literally) in different directions.  

I think Nate and I are pretty chill overall with what is thrown our way - a teenager with minimal interest in hanging with her family, troubling health news from loved ones, job stress and security, and child anxiety come to mind. We are so very grateful for the good thrown our way too seen in the pics below.

Lily is now 15.  She is a focused and competitive young lady, whether it's being super motivated at improving her volleyball game or staying on top of her school work.  She is super independent with big goals and little interest in spending time with her family.  She is kind and goofy with her friends. Slowing down to learn life skills like doing her chores correctly (psst sweeping the floor or helping cook dinner) has plenty of room for improvement.  She isn't a hugger but she is responsive and ready to help when we ask (even with the eye roll) which we appreciate.

Lily loves playing front row

Here are a few more heart happy moments from the recent past.

                Our robins Lenny and Larry are back on our front porch.  The amount of joy and the number of "Hi Lenny" we say when entering or exiting our home is high these days.

Elise tried Track and Field for the first time.  High jump and long jump were the events she enjoyed the most. Super proud of her effort sticking with it the whole season.

We are no longer a home needing a playset in our backyard.  Paul and Elise enjoyed destroying it to make way for we don't know what next. 

Lolo and I took Oma and Opa to the Indian Wells Tennis tournament.  It was tennis heaven.  We all enjoyed the warm sun and the high quality tennis. My "heart beating fast can't stop smiling" happy moment was watching Sinner play.  

Elise spoiled us by teaching all of us how to make our own sushi. Even Oma and Opa rolled their own sushi.  

Our good friend Sara visited Portland with her beautiful family.  Just a simple visit with a good friend.

The only change to this year's Easter traditions was Lily being out of town at a volleyball tournament.  The rest of us made sure to enjoy Solleier and a backyard egg hunt.

Honoring and celebrating Eric on his first heavenly birthday sharing memories while out for lunch together.

Enjoying Chipotle late on a Sunday night after Paul won a tennis tournament.

Mental health day for Elise landed us in the Gorge enjoying the wildflowers.

Over 20 years of Monday nights with these beautiful ladies. Enjoying a change of routine with a private fashion/styling party at a local boutique from an auction win.  I'm so grateful for each of them.

Obligatory Mother's Day ask - picture of my kids.  Elise wearing jeans is the biggest surprise in this snap.

Speaking of surprises, my sister and I had so much fun laughing while prepping for her surprise visit to Portland wearing an inflatable unicorn costume.  Lolo is such a good sport.

On Lily's bday, we did some shopping before dinner.  Such a random and kinda mundane moment but it makes my heart happy being all together.

Lily on her 15th Birthday.  She wanted Indian food (mostly for the Mango Lassi).

My two faves at the Fireside bar talking about how many times we say Gesundheit before it's annoying and won't say it anymore.

Progressive dinner with our SDC friends crew.  It was a super fun night being all together. We all knew each other before Covid but Covid really brought this crew closer and we continue to have a blast and support each other however we can.

One more month of school left.  Unlike previous years, we don't have much planned other than our big trip to Japan in July.  The days of camp spreadsheet tracking activities are fading.

Our Friend Troy

When our kids were young and we had recently moved back to Portland, we were blessed when a couple of long time friends, Dot and Troy, moved to Portland too.   Dot was Nate's college roommate, and before she and her husband Troy moved to Portland, we were friends who saw each other here and there whenever we happened to be in the same town.

The few years we all spent living in Portland at the same time was incredibly special and we knew it in the moment.  Nate and I both recall telling each other how lucky we are to have such good long time friends in our lives that live so close. The extra icing on the cake was how much they cared about our kids and showed it over and over again.  They truly exemplified what it means to show their love through action towards our kids, and I'll be forever grateful for the impact it's left on them.   They hosted fancy tea parties with my girls, taught them how to do handstands, made the best grilled PB&J and BLT's, did fancy hair up-do's, gifted us the most detailed carved pumpkin of a scenic landscape at Halloween, played dress up, and we shared so many delicious meals together.  Keep in mind, they did not have children of their own, yet still chose to include our kids the majority of the time.   

We spent a lot of time together.  We threw the football around in the street during halftime of Michigan football games (Go Blue!), enjoyed Thanksgiving together with a side of sushi, adventured to Mt. Angel Oktoberfest, the list goes on.  Troy blew us all away when he wrote and illustrated a children's book for Lily about her and our family after a simple conversation he had with her.  Dot got it bound and gifted it to us.  "Lily Skis Mt Hood" sits proudly on our bookshelf.

Dot and Troy ended up moving to Bainbridge Island to their dream home after a couple years in Portland.  We visited them once as they were settling in.  We searched for sea glass on the shore, explored their large garden and their new home full of so many large windows and lots of light.  We could easily see why they wanted to make the move to this dream spot.

 A short while later on Father's Day 2018, Troy was on a morning run with his friend.  A high school student fell asleep at the wheel and hit them both.  Troy's friend died from his injuries.  Troy was airlifted to the hospital.   A devastating spinal cord injury resulted in Troy becoming a quadriplegic.  His days as an elite athlete running ultra marathons, climbing mountains, and skiing were no longer possible.  Dot's role became not only wife and best friend to Troy but also nurse, caretaker, and advocate 24-7.  So much changed in an instant.

I had mentioned in a previous post that the time around my brother's final phase of life was not only devastatingly painful but also full of genuine love.  I was witness to the most pure, deep, and beautifully raw form of love at the end of his life.  Dorothy and Troy's journey from the helicopter airlift to over five years of living as a quadriplegic introduced my whole family to what it truly means to take care of someone in sickness and in health with such love and concern every moment of the day.   The hardships they faced are truly unfathomable.  I'll never forget how his smile and humor still lit up the hospital room even with the knowledge he'd have to accept a new quality of life simply through no fault of his own.  I remember hunting down a Burrito Supreme from El Farol near the hospital and on the walk to his room passed so many staff members who spoke so kindly of Troy and his positive spirit. Troy was an intellectual, a PhD economist, Michigan football lover, and so driven to be so damn good in all his varying interests.  His kindness though was the common thread through all of it.  

Troy died last week from complications from his injuries.  I wrote this post because I want people to know who he is.  I want to honor him and his loving wife Dot.  We love you so much. 

One of Troy's favorite quotes was

"Only deeds done for others have meaning on both sides of the grave."

He loved it so much, he wanted to memorize it in the language it originated in.

"Nur die Tat die fur andere getan worden ist hat bedeutung beide seits des grabes."

I'm so glad I found this moment between Troy and Nate.  Troy was trying to shake Nate's hand and Troy said the handshake was the start of forming a committee that believed Jim Harbaugh should serve as coach Michigan Football in perpetuity.  This was when he was still pretty controversial.  Troy knew....

I hope you to take the time to look at these pictures, see his face, hear his voice.  We feel so blessed to have had Troy, for the short time it ended up being.  

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2024 - Go Blue, Vegas Baby, The Comfy

 2024 started out with a big teary eyed smile seeing Michigan win the National Championship again after 30 years of close seasons and plenty of disappointments.  My brother would have loved to have seen it happen; he was emotionally vested and so passionate about his opinions of the team.  Go Blue! 

A devastating storm hit Portland in January that shut most of the city down for a week..  The ice and wind wreaked havoc across the city with so many downed trees, loss of power, and damage to homes.  We were very lucky keeping power. Nate and Lily made it out before it all went down to Lily's volleyball tournament in Houston.  We had tickets to a Blazers game at the start of the storm when the Phoenix Suns were already in town and chose to keep the game on even though conditions were only getting worse.   I was proud of Paul and Elise for braving the conditions to make the long walk to the arena for a little adventure. 

Paul and Elise making churros together during the storm.

Nate and I took a 48 hour getaway to Vegas to see U2 at the Sphere.  A U2 concert was our first date on tax day 2001.  It was the first time the two of us have flown anywhere together alone since having kids.  It was exactly what we hoped it would be, not only the concert, but simply traveling and exploring again - just the two of us, like we once did a lot more of back in the day.  Here is Nate drinking a margarita while watching the gondolas go by indoors at the Venetian.

I fell in love with Meow Wolf years ago on a trip with my sister to Sante Fe.  I'm so glad Nate was game to give the only other location of Meow Wolf a go in Vegas.  Its such a fun interactive art experience that is so wonderfully silly and creative.  Big recommend.

We are super proud of Elise for passing her Karate belt test.  We were all able to go and see her earn her purple belt.  She is such a strong force out there and we are super impressed with what she has learned.  Don't pick a fight with her.

Another rare outing we got to do was take Paul out on a date, just the 3 of us.  We took him out to eat at an upscale Mediterranean restaurant, checked out a packed Portland Night Market, and enjoyed the Portland Lights Festival on the way home.  We were loving every moment of our date with him.  He can be so fun.

Snapped a pic of my Valentines before they headed off to school.  Please note Elise wearing something other than sweatpants and a sweatshirt.  Woohoo.

Our Valentine's Day celebration of king crab legs continues.  Opa knows where to get the best deal in town.  They spoiled us this year even making mashed potatoes with bacon.  Such a fantastic meal.  Thanks for joining Oma and Opa.

Paul is not our big reader so I had to document him immersed in "The Martian." He has finally experienced getting sucked into a novel and the feeling of not wanting to put it down.

Moxie gets around.  Plenty of cozy cuddles and kids in their "Comfy" hoodies in 2024.  The Comfy has been a staple fashion choice by all the kids for the last few months around the house.

President's Day weekend has us all in different places.  Elise and I are home busy with Girl Scout cookie season and group fun.  Paul and Nate are in Black Butte with friends skiing and hot tubbing.  Lily is living it up in Vegas doing what she loves on the volleyball court and getting to check out a new city with volleyball friends.  

                                    

My sister and I are taking our parents to the Indian Wells tennis tournament.  Going to a tennis tournament has been on my mom's bucket list for a long time; it's about time. My Dad went to Wimbledon long ago. It'll be fun.  Eric definitely played a hand in making this trip finally happen. Thanks Eric.   I am a HUGE Sinner fan.  My favorite Christmas gift was a T-shirt of Sinner.  He won the Australian Open which also brought me a teary smile.  I hope I get to see him. Watch out small children; I'll elbow you out of the way for a picture or an autograph.  Maybe I should bring my rackets in case he'd like to hit :) 

Christmas 2023 & Nate's 47th Birthday

This time last year, I had made the resolution to document more of the moments when I feel most in love with myself as a way to be a bit kinder to myself and maybe learn about myself a bit more in the process.  The resolution was a big fail - not one journal entry on the topic.  What I did do, though, was journal a lot more than usual on all that happened in 2023.  It was a whole lot of hard, heartbreak, and also so much love.  Gosh, I continue to cry anytime I let myself stop and look back at 2023 like I am right now.  I have never felt so much deep extended sadness and pure beautiful moments of love over and over again. 

The love was very much felt over Christmas.  We were grateful to host my whole family including Eric's family.  The 12 of us spent the Holidays together taking it easy and enjoying each other's company at home.  There was more laughter than tears.  The hugs felt good too.  We toasted to Eric and gave him a good show he could enjoy up in heaven.   

We also made sure Nate felt the love on his Birthday.  This year's Dad triathlon involved a family walk to Powell's, a Forest Park hike, and a walk to check out the Christmas lights on Peacock Lane.  We enjoyed the new restaurant Alpenrausch for dinner to enjoy some German-Swiss food.  Hello kaesespaetzle.  

Speaking of German/Swiss food, fondue is on the menu for tonight with Oma and Opa - a decades-long family tradition.  Staying up til midnight is not an issue for the kids anymore - easy as can be.  The challenge to stay up that late is much more with me.  

Cheers to new adventures and kindness as our compass for ourselves and onto others.  

Here are some highlights of the last few days.  I loved Christmas with family so much, I didn't want to pick just a few...so I made a highlight reel.

Paul likes to cut down the tree after Christmas. 

Elise got some new clay for Christmas.  I continue to be amazed by her sculpting creations. 

Nate's Birthday.  Started with Opa's popovers and ended with his favorite cake from Papa Haydn.  Lots of walking in between.

Christmas morning

Christmas morning family pic before everyone was ready to open presents.

Christmas 2023 Highlight reel - yeah, some of the pictures are cut off or not centered right...

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Birthdays, Visitors, Oma & Opa are back

Birthdays came and went as did a few visitors this past Fall. My sister came for a weekend for no other reason than to simply hang out with us.  She did get to do her favorite pastime a bit more on this visit: cuddling puppies.  Grandma and Grandpa also came over Paul and Elise's 12th Birthday weekend to help us spoil them.  We had a fun quick visit with our dear friends from Munich too.  

Paul and Elise are now 12 years old.  Their years were noticeably different from each other.  Elise is my home body, preferring her robe and a blanket much of the time, yet she had a year of adventures and firsts which not only make us parents proud but which I know she'll remember as milestones too.  She did her first week-long camping trip with her Girl Scout troop and traveled solo with me to Florida to be with my brother.  She surprised us by not only wanting to try the school cross country team but also stuck with it and ran multiple 3K races.  She was in her element at her 5th grade graduation - so carefree and full of joy; just how we wish to imagine our kids when we close our eyes to think of them.  Elise's culinary creations, sketches, and clay sculptures bumped up a significant notch in quality this past year.  She definitely got Nate's artistic talents and then some. Uncle Eric's passing manifested a stronger desire to do more family activities together and asking more questions than before about our family stories.

Paul had a tough year overall.   A pitching injury took him out of baseball and tennis for a solid 5 months.  He spent a lot more time biking around the neighborhood alone to pass the time (aka when we told him to get off screen and out of the house).  He lost his fire and passion for his interests this past year to the point that we were concerned he was steering towards depression.  He has bounced back some since being able to start back up in baseball conditioning and one tennis class.  What he was lacking in intensity, he made up for with his willingness to help when asked, sweet hugs, and long goodnights and cuddles.  Paul always says he doesn't like school but he is a very conscientious, organized, and disciplined student.  His cereal-loving breakfast days may be over and being replaced with omelets now.  Uncle Eric's passing manifested with a need to know the plans and timing of it all.  His eyes are on the time often. He can sense when I'm sad and will reach out and give me a hug and not say a word.  I can sense it with him too. Paul can get quite concerned if any of us are home later than expected.  

I'll remember my birthday this year being low key and feeling the love hug from my circle.  I'll also very much remember that the months I have spent watching Family Ties in order with Nate, Paul, and Elise just to find one specific episode that I vividly remember laughing so hard at with my brother and sister when I was the twin's age led to it playing on my Birthday.  Thanks Eric. It meant the world to me to see that scene again.  Steven Keaton (the Dad in Family Ties) cracks me up.

Oma and Opa are back in Portland now after being gone much of the year.  Even with my Dad's bad back and my mom not having function of one arm, they helped me out of a bind putting together a quick salmon appetizer for me to take to a last-minute work potluck.  That's what they do - they help however they can whenever asked, especially when it comes to food.

Next up is hosting Christmas.  We are all very much looking forward to seeing Sonya, Ken, Jill, Ryan, and Emma. We have some fun in store that will surely bring some laughs.  We'll make Eric proud as he watches us celebrate Christmas together.  As Buddy says in Eric's favorite Christmas movie "Elf": "I just like to smile. Smiling is my favorite."  We will try and channel Elf this Holiday.  

Birthday dinner - take out from G-Love

This is where I go to feel most connected to what my heart is feeling.

Big welcome to Lolo at the airport

We enjoyed Thanksgiving with friends in Black Butte Oregon.  This was after a game of touch football

The homemade knitted socks strings for each of the kids is one of my favorite Christmas decorations and traditions.

Elise's Birthday sleepover party with her crew.

A Christmas tree helps bring calm to the home

Twins wanted sushi for their Birthday dinner with Grandma and Grandpa

12 year old Paul and Elise, still about the same height!

This is a view from Lily's high school during a random weekday sunrise.

Welcome back Oma and Opa.  Opa was unpacked within minutes of arriving.

At Elise's Christmas piano concert.

Paul's Birthday party sleepover with his crew.  They enjoyed the candy shop and even tried Bean Boozled game for the first time.  The bad ones are more horrific tasting than expected.

Last picture of 2023 with the GN (girls night) crew, going 20+ years strong of our Monday nights together